There are times when I just want to drown. Drown, in a way that I want to hide from all the pain that the real world caused me. But I don’t want to die. I just want to build my own world—an enchanting place with just all the goodness—with just closing my eyes. Because I don’t want to be sad anymore. I want to forget all the sad memories. I want to be happy. And there’s nothing wrong with trying to make my own world right? I am all free but I am drowning. Still drowning. Despite of the happiness my new world gives me, I still experience pain and hardship. Well, maybe, pain is really present in every situation. I just can’t escape reality that easy. It will still hurt. Always.
I need someone who won’t give up on me. Not someone who’s just there at my bright days, someone who only wants happiness from me. someone who will stay by my side even if im not ready to talk. even if im not talking lively with him. he will not be bored talking to me. he will not be mad or whatever because he understands me. who will not break his promises. why do people have to change?
Asan ka na ngayon? wala.